Tiny but IMPORTANT

it has been the third days since the incident happened. So, do you want to ask what is my feeling? Sincerely speaking, i start to feel stressed since the incident happened. Yes, it is my fault, i didn't realise about the seriousness of my action until monday.

How was the incident happened? It is just a normal case for us and for them maybe, but for the behalf of school, they will take this seriously as it involves the safety of students and we as the teachers will definitely have the most responsibility for this. 

Every monday class, since the first day i take over form 4, they will have lots of excuses to go back earlier. No transport lah, prayer lah, sick lah, tuition lah... but actually that is the proper class hour for them to attend. Maybe because of my innocent (or idiotness?), i take this case easily and not even think about the consequences. 

So, on monday, that was the first day along my practical which make me feel the most stress. I can't even concentrate in preparing the next day lesson. This condition where tension come along with blank in brain will only occur during every semester, but now, it came to me. Luckily she or they didn't do something that might hurt themselves that day, if not you will no longer see me here or still having the name as TEACHER. I might be gantung from this school or need to stop my practical straight away. I just can't imagine the consequences if something really happen that day. 

I still have 2 more weeks or 12 teaching days at here. I felt like i am so sorry for all those teachers who being scold by principle. I think i am the one who going to responsible for all these. Every time when the teachers get scold or advise by PK, they will come to me and ask (or just another way of scolding) about the incident that day and why i often let students go back earlier. Can i fight with them? No, i don't think so and i won't do so. Would i scold my students? No too. It is my responsible and i think no use also if i pass all these bad feeling to my students. Don't give them pressure, they just not mature enough to think of all these things. 

Thanks for this incident, it let me learn about what is the things that i really need to pay attention with while i am in the class other than teaching. Students are teacher's asset. Without them, who am i? Just take good care about them, anything will solve smoothly. i hope so..

:: quote from Nicholas Teo- "no matter how hard pr how many obstacles you need to pass through, there will still a brand new day waiting for you in front."