life upon confirmation

Its has been the 6 months i work in this school and i am about to confirm by the company. Well, the story begin this way... 

Every wednesday, we will have our usual contact time with principle, a very kind but yet likes to make bad humour. Last wednesday, he just suddenly announced my name and give me a letter in front of everyone. i have totally no idea on what is these all about. after reading the letter, i just feel that an i so kind to be treated this way by the company? upon confirmation, they just send me a letter instead if give me a confirmation letter to sign. i have decided to talk to principle about this as if i have to quit this job for government school posting. still no answer for me at this moment, and i am still waiting.

feel very sad actually when there is no any increment when come to confirmation, not even a few bucks. well, is not to say that i am too money face, but isn't it a goid way to keep these staff working for you by this way? or this school prefer to practice the tradition of keep changing teacher every term and always get complain by the parents?

why i want to get myself into this tiring job? teaching is my dream as i am able to use my own effort to make these child grow better in their life, not just in their academic, but in the way of character building and attitude towards everyone. my intention at first is to teach secondary student, which i can focus on their mind set abd character only. but now i end up working as a primary class teacher with 16 kids with me. actually it should be 16+1, the one is the kid whom i am sponsoring him for his study through world vision child sponsorship programme, but this is another topic. 

for these 16 kids, one with speech delay problem and sometimes can't control herself well, one with hyperactive and yet love to cry when i fierce to him, one likes to talk non stop, one with only 5 years old but now in year 1, one loves to bully friends but the father said she does not get enough attention from teacher, one cries everyday when come or about to go back from school, one with..........

well, terrible and horrible right? at least i am proud to say that, i am giving my full care as what a class teacher should have, or even more than that, on them. I am not sure whether i am going to be here teaching for the coming terms or year, but the heart for me towards them are still the same. (sound disgusting x100)

:: The Spanish boy, Sergio who keeps making trouble for me, especially during lunch time.

:: Well, at least proved that they know what I have done along the time..