too fast?

there are a lot of uncertainty in my mind now, d still i am searching for the answer to calm myself down.. maybe u might ask, the person like me, with only working life and family life, what else things that can make me feel uncertain? or in other words do i have the time to think of all these?

you want to know? the answer is yes, and i can make ample of time for these.. ya, ample of time, just to fit in the uncertain time from the main target.. (am i holding a M16 now xp)

frankly speaking, i just recover from a sad past not long ago, and i dont think can be fully recover.. the main purpose for me to mingle around is just to know more people which i feel comfortable to chat with, and i did mention that i don't think i am suitable to be love at this moment.. but we cant plan anything to go as what we think, still, i meet with the special one..

not really so special until others will force me to marry him straight away, is just the way that he acts, he talks, he thinks, he plans, are about the same with what are in my mind.. is that a miracle? or bad luck maybe? because there will be no personal privacy for what i think later on.. haha..

uncertainty exist, as the person cares.. i care, i scare. so the more i know him, the more we share our thought, the more i care, the more i scare.. this is kind of weird emotion,for human..

i know that there are much similarity that can be found in us.. even the sparkling of love particles can be smell by friends around.. because of this, i keep teasing by colleague today as i keep smiling alone like crazy people..

well, still, maybe it happens to be too fast, both of us are uncertain on this.. time, will be there best cure no matter how is the outcome later.. bless me..