choices

when this news come, i know, it will be a bomb which will explode at anytime in my family. why i said so? well, all of us are himan being, everybody has their own way of thinking. and how my family members will do is, they will tell u (but actually is force u unconsiously) on what to do, which solution is the best from their thought.

well, these interview just came by the wrong time.. i mean, as i have decided to not joining any government post, why is this chance of interview came to me again? u know, my family especially my grandpa object me to be a teacher at first when i decided to further my study in educational course. they even said very bad words at that time. but now, they are like if i am not going, i am like wasting my 25 years of life being a human in the world. will it be so serious?

just now, argued with mum over the phone just because of we have different opinion on how i should go to there by 27 march, or earlier. i am trying very hard to arrange a very simple and won't disturb many people schedule to be there. i am this kind of person. i would rather tired myself for through some tough ways rather than asking help from others which might taken their time and energy. but my mum insist me to ask help from my uncle. for wat? fo him to drive me? but i am not really close with him! how can i..... haiz..

i have apply for 2 days leaves, for sure unpaid. and plan to go putrajaya by the early of 26, then can rest there, do some preparation, force to read those notes which saying our government did something good for education etc etc.. if can reach there i think is no problem for me to attend the interview. ya, i need to reach there early. this very schematic interview only make people suffer. dont forget, need to change to baju kurung for that interview.. if i take night trip to there, where should i change? or just wear it from home since midnight? arghh.. so troublesome..

one of my best friends even said, just ask my boy to send me there. where can i get one in such a short time and just want him to send me there? some more this is on week day, everybody working ah. she said again, can't just ask him to take a day off as well? ha, u know this is.not my style of work. in what position i can request him like that? a friend? close friend? best friend? girl friend? or even soul mate? no matter how, it work works!

when thinking about all these, make me headache only. anybody with better solution? please let me know... i know i am useless.. can't even think of a proper way over this small thing.. T.T